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for death is the end of all?

goats around karagol in bolkar mountain

It all looks at your connections in the end,
Your position is determined, your mind made
imagine your connection is the land
Your bosses, your masters, your degrees
All neighbours all friends enemies parasites


        families of family, of friend
            of enemy
            of parasite
    friends of family, of friend
        of enemy
        of parasite

Enemies of family, of friend
    of enemy
    of parasite
Parasites of family, of friend
    of enemy
    of parasite
Cut off your connections / open branches
I never chose to be one
Just who I am. No mind of mine
Were involved in this path

    August 20, Nigde
            two bikes on the road
            wheels heavy on bitumen
                deep breathing,     irregular
            shade and water scarce

    all we want is to see
    Mount Bolkar, highlands with pine, lake with tiles
        snow sleeps around
On the road, Meydan highland, Kerim Dayı invites for dinner and drinks.
Farmers of all trades.
And Ahmet Vefik, a loyal connoisseur of trades.
    a mediator of time and labor
Lost his wife to cancer, recently, lost his fortune to scammers bigger than his mind
and so gave in to the mountains and drinking.
The farmers fed us by hand,
melted garlic, grilled onions and buffalo balls,
And get me well, tipsy. Raki in the stream.
Next morning, we rode up to the lakes.

    (the bikes rode us)
By the time we got there, someone said:
    oh yeah, some guys were here last year on their bikes too.
    But they went all the way across the peaks. To the other side.
        Right. Nice to fucking know.
We got chased by 5 kangals on the way here
Wasn’t enough to make us faster.

Recipe: Karsambach
1 cup of clean mountain snow
Eyeball molasses
Ten laps around the lake.
    then sitting empty by the fire, singing loud songs front the tent
        dreaming of the breakfast; the morning;

A voice returned:
        who complains here
        who wishes for more?
    who said the goats shall be dependent
    for death is the end of all?

the fire died that night
under the sound - neighbouring parties

what’s done is done
what’s gone is gone
a fire with a smoke
        turns into ash